I dont know what I am passionate about !

by Anita M
(Mumbai, India)

My sister has been asking me to delve deeper myself to seek what it is I am passionate about.

But I still haven't been able to figure out.

I am a Chartered Accountant & C.P.A and currently I am freelancing as a Corporate Finance consultant.

I'm not unhappy with what I do. I like it but the work doesn't come in regularly. I quit my job a year and a half back even though I liked what i was doing (Financial Modeling for New Business Ventures) since I felt wasted and unappreciated there.

My views were not taken into account by the higher ups and I always felt I could do a better job than the CEO of running the company.

I have the ability to think out of the box - innovative achievable ideas or solutions to issues. I also like being around people and I like to work with them as a team and treat them more as my children than my juniors.

I have be adjudged the best team leader in one of my companies on the basis of a reverse appraisal by my team members and also based on the quality of the output of my team.

I still have juniors calling me to say they would like to work under me again someday.

I have been through pretty rough times since a few years now. My Mum passed away 3 years ago and I was not fully able to accept it or grieve her loss cause of my Dad, he didn't want us to cry, said we needed to be strong and face it.

But after 2 years of denial it affected my well being and my reaction to situations and hence I quit my job in frustration. I have been unable to find another job since then due to recession.

I also went through a very bad relationship where i was not treated with respect. I did take it for a while and my self esteem suffered an all time low. But one fine day I couldn't take it anymore and broke up.

Went through Reki and pranic healing and had a spiritual awakening in one of the pranic healing sessions. I have become spiritually inclined since and am fairly able to handle stress and situations or come out of depressing situations faster than i used to.

Tapping into my inner self - through yoga , mediation and reading spiritual books has helped me a lot. But somehow I still haven't been able to figure out my life purpose. Can you please help me find out my life purpose and realize my full potential.

Love and light,

Anita