I'm angry.. too often

by Philip
(Leeds, United Kingdom, (England))

I don't have the patience to meditate and yet at times I am very calm and highly composed - I get angry too easily... always have.

My history is one of neglect + abuse (childhood) and I fear I will take this anger into my old age (am 45)

How can I calm my restless and impatient mind... it seems so hard to meditate.

Any help gratefully received.

Phil